It's been quite a week..or two..since I last posted (I can't keep track of time). Right now, I'm watching the History Channel on mute and listening to Linkin Park's A Thousand Suns. It's pretty mellow right now - cold, rainy day, low lighting in my room, huge cup of hot coffee (mmmm) and probably some late breakfast afterward.
Anyways... A lot happened this week. Eden had her first therapy session of the year with a new therapist and that seems to have gone well. I won't go into detail; if you feel like reading all about it, go to her blog. I've been training a puppy. His name is Hot-shot and he's definitely part Beagle and based on his build and his tail, I hypothesize the other part is Bluetick. He's a sweetheart and he's making really great progress. I'm looking for a second job - today I'm dropping off an application at Outback and crossing my fingers since one of my room mates works there and said he would talk to the manager for me.
I've been skipping therapy because I can't pay for it right now and I'm not sure if I'm okay with it. I haven't been losing time as much since Eden's been back, but I'm still carrying around a lot of pain and confusion and anger and sometimes I lose it and end up taking it out on her. I'm working on it, but it's slow progress. I'm supposed to be writing a letter to my mom that she'll never get, but I haven't touched it since I started it, I think, December 12. I'll probably let Emily color when I'm done typing because she hasn't had much time to come out lately. Then again, a 7 year old on coffee probably isn't the best idea. I'll come back and the room will be a wreck - crayon on the wall, conte on the furniture, snacks on the floor, spilled drinks, and I'll have a 2 liter in my hand and feel like I haven't slept in 72 hours (which means I'll be hyper and hallucinating). ..Yeah, I think I'll wait a while before she comes out.
My sister's baby is due in a week, so it could be any day now!! I'm so excited! She's been trying for years and kept having miscarriages, so this is her first child! I've been shaking with anticipation and keeping my phone on me at all times just in case. I reeaally hope that I can get up there to be with her when Nathan is born.
Food time is now.
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