Progress:
-Expresses emotions more assertively.
-Recognizes specific events to grieve.
-Briefly demonstrated excitement.
Things to work on tomorrow:
-Work full shift without getting down.
-Work full shift without getting down.
-Clean room
-Try to stay busy
During therapy, Emily tried to switch out. I've never stopped an alter halfway through switching before. I could feel my body loosening up and it was like the whole process was in slow motion. My therapist said it only lasted a minute. It was like being inside of my body and outside of it at the same time. It was pretty neat. Laia spoke a few words, but she didn't come out. She just interrupted my sentence to speak ill of my ex. My therapist opened the DSM IV and was asking me questions. I think she was trying to fit some kind of diagnosis together, but she didn't tell me what she was looking at and I didn't ask. It was kind of close to the front of the book. She asked if I exhibit social reciprocity, or feed off of others' emotions when I socialize with them. She asked if I divert eye contact or have trouble keeping it for extended periods of time. And she asked if I have little rituals or routines. I need to look up whatever it is that she was asking me; I want to find out what it was. I also showed some excitement when I told her that my best friend might be coming down this weekend.
She told me I'm making notable progress and to keep doing what I'm doing. I've come a long way in the last few months. I've got a lot further to go, but I'm confident that I can overcome it. I'm determined.
There probably won't be another update for a few days since Eden comes home tomorrow night and I'll be spending as much time with her as I can before school starts back.
Happy New Year!!
