Guilty by Dissociation

I'm not like the SCAD kids...not like her friends...the people she knows... They talk about art and sociopolitical issues and they have talents and they come from better backgrounds than I do and they all seem much more compatible to her than I... At least, in my own mind. I keep wondering if she'll meet someone and over time, find that...let's give her a name; let's say Amy... and over time, she'll find that Amy is better for her than I am. Maybe Amy doesn't smoke pot or like to party. Maybe she writes and sings and plays guitar. Maybe Amy doesn't get so angry and say things she can't control and doesn't mean. Maybe she knows Japanese and likes anime and manga and steam/dieselpunk. Maybe her family would be better for Eden. Maybe Amy will be able to give Eden all of her attention all the time. Maybe she'll give Eden more than I can and maybe...just maybe...she'll love her more than I do........